And, if you are passing through a though moment, just close your eyes, life it's only one, anybody would care about a mark, anybody would care about if you are big, small, tall... Anybody but you, so just stop, and think, "i am not perfect, but nobody is" because that is, nobody is, stop trying and enjoy. Enjoy how perfect you are under your own eyes, under the eyes of the ones that really love you, under the ones that deserve you, because you are yourself, and thats all that matters and its all that has to matter.
And if they dont like you? F*ck them. Plus, wouldnt its be super boring being top at all? You could never improve and get tired, as you are perfect at all, life will be way too boring. ♥